Previously, I wrote about being diagnosed with Thyroid Disease. I have a hyperthyroid, so my heart rate is always racing. I also have trouble with memory, I am always weak and shaking a lot. I have anxiety, and I also have trouble breathing. There are other symptoms but those are what I face on a daily basis.
For the past two months, I spent more time in bed as if I am on bed arrest. I would wake up then fall asleep because I literally have no energy. I eat a lot and I am constantly exercising, so I know the problem is my thyroid. My parents would yell at me because in their eyes, I am being lazy.
I don’t get to choose what I can or cannot do. There are things that I want to do, but I can’t fight with my body. Today, I woke up around 9a.m. My body is use to waking up at that time. I walked my dog, but I started breathing heavily and felt dizzy. Next thing I knew, I was in bed again. At 11a.m., I tried to force myself to get up. I didn’t even make it out again, I slept until 2p.m. At the moment I am slightly tired, but I am awake. My neck is killing me and I am still having trouble with breathing.
I have this rule that if I sleep past 11a.m., then I am wasting my day. However, I cannot fight with my body anymore so there is not much that I can do. My condition worsens with every week that pasts. I try to not become so depressed about dealing with this disease.
My aunt and grandma are the only two that understand what I am going through and constantly call me asking how I am doing. I don’t know what I would do without their love and support. I just wish the other people that I am close with cared enough to ask. I am trying to put that past me and not worry so much. People are just too concerned with their lives and sometimes forget about those in their lives.
I have an appointment with an endocrinologist on Monday. After searching and dealing with ridiculous doctors, I am hoping this appointment will be better.