You’re going to want to give up. Don’t.
I just wanted to address an issue that I’ve been dealing upon myself lately. If you’re new to reading my posts, I do have an illness. If you’re not new, then you’re familiar with my posts on having hashimotos thyroiditis and hypothyroidism. I’m still in the process of finding out what these masses attached to my nodules are.
I am also still in the process of accepting the things that I cannot change. Since my last doctor appointment I’ve been extremely upset with myself because I found out that I lost 10 pounds. I started hiding my body and became ashamed and disgusted with myself. Before I explain any further, read one of my posts about practicing self love.
Gaining weight have always been an issue for me throughout my whole life. I’ve been bullied and I still receive comments about my weight. Good or bad, these comments do go in one ear and out the other. However, it does not mean that it doesn’t hurt. Also, yes I am a vegetarian however there are also overweight vegetarians.
I always have a certain image about how I want to look. I’ve been so focused on these numbers that I forgot that I gain weight as fast as I lose it. It will go up and down no matter how much I eat. I’m not normal, that’s okay. I was never normal or born to fit in anyway. My metabolism and everything else my thyroid controls have gone haywire.
At times like this I just have to tell those negative thoughts to shut up while I love the woman in the mirror even more and tell her she’s beautiful no matter what size she is. If I don’t do it, no one else will. It’s called a battle for a reason. I shouldn’t be so focused on being hard on myself, the fight is with this tiny swollen butterfly inside of my neck.
If you’re dealing with any issues that’s similar to this, again read my post, Practice Self Love Daily. The first thing you should do before you love anyone else is to love yourself always. Be kind to yourself. If you’re overwhelmed or stressed out, take some time out to just breathe and clear your mind. Treat yourself cause you deserve it. Happiness means so much more than the war you create on the inside. Smile, it helps.
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.