A few of you wanted me to follow up on my next appointment to the doctors. Well, here it is. I will try to not express the anger I felt in this post as I did earlier.
I’m on my third doctor, I was referred to see an endocrinologist. At first I really thought he cared unlike the others until we went over my lab results and my ultrasound today. Let me just say he did not check for everything. Just the basic. These results came out as normal like always, however it appears that my Vitamin D is low. It also showed that I have anemia. The anemia part threw me off, if anything my thyroid probably caused me to be in a month? My ultrasound showed that the masses found on both nodules have grown but my doctors claims they are not large enough to examine. My goiter is also not large enough to examine (so he says). Last year my nodules were .8mm. This time it’s 1.18 in. (left) &1.27 in. (right), so they say. However, no one can explain what’s the large masses found around them. You can simply look at my neck and see that they’re growing. I often have to hide them with my hair whenever I take pictures.
I explained to him that if they are not large enough to examine, then why can I not breathe normally? I also cannot sleep on my right side (which is where the larger mass is located). I often wake up gasping for air or have to have someone wake me up because I cannot breathe in my sleep. The feeling of having air cut off because of the right nodule is terrifying. Also, I am a singer. I find it hard to sing now because I get tired easily and I simply cannot breathe or push out the right notes. I use to belt effortlessly. I can’t raise my voice when I talk. People can barely hear me. His explanation, it’s my nerves. He said that I could be nervous or I am having panic attacks. I rolled my eyes. I have been singing my whole life, I rarely get stage fright. There is always that nervous yet exciting feeling before a show, but it’s all gone once you’re on stage. Then he asked if I’m normally depressed or moody. Of course not! I’m naturally bubbly and I’m always smiling however, these symptoms cause me to feel depressed. Of course he did not want to hear any of that. So, he is making me take tranquilizers so that I can “calm down” especially when I get too excited. I’m pretty sure my nerves have nothing to do with any kind of pressure added onto my neck, especially where the larger mass is found. I’m also sure being excited is a normal feeling. I’m always happy, I get excited over the littlest things…
Moving forward, he then asked how come I’ve been losing so much weight. You tell me, because last I checked I told this doctor so many times that I have symptoms for both hypothyroidism and hyperthyroidism around my menstrual cycle. So, during my menstrual cycle I lose a lot of weight. Afterwards, I gain weight. It goes up and down. I’m not going to eat more than I do because I already eat a lot. He had no solution to this issue other than to eat more.
So ladies and gentlemen, I am being put on tranquilizer, vitamin 2, and iron pills. So, just like the other two doctors I am being seen as normal. Sort of, this third one thinks I have a mental disorder and that I need help calming down. I really didn’t believe it when I spoke to other patients when they said they were being seen as mental as well.
I really cannot make all of this up. I’ve been diagnosed for two years now and not one doctor have given me thyroid medication or a resolution about the masses found on my nodules. I’m definitely searching for a new doctor. I have over 50 symptoms, yet I’m being seen as normal but psycho.
You cannot treat anyone just based off of their lab results. No two thyroid patient is alike,. You’re meant to treat us based off our symptoms as well.
I’m going for a follow-up next month. I am getting my old lab results and ultrasound faxed to him for a comparison. He also wants me doing more blood work. Let’s see how this goes.