Transformation: This Time, Last Year.

2 Corinthians 6:14-15

14 Do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers. For what partnership has righteousness with lawlessness? Or what fellowship has light with darkness? 15 What accord has Christ with Belial? Or what portion does a believer share with an unbeliever?

It’s about that time for another transparent moment. You can wear all these shirts with a message. “Bae aint bae if bae don’t pray.” But when you dig deep inside someone’s heart, then that message becomes powerful.

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This exact time last year, my life changed for the better. I was a lost, depressed, and heartbroken woman who fully surrendered my life to Jesus. I gave up with wanting to live like the world. I wanted nothing to do with anything that came from me and desired God’s heart. I knew about God. In fact, I was born and raised in the church. I went to church every single week, I read my bible, I prayed and even developed a relationship with Him. But I was selfish and greedy. I wanted it my way and not His way.

I have always dreamt about having that Cinderella story and my wedding day. I have always had that desire since I was a little girl to wait and save myself until marriage. Unfortunately, the devil does not want to see that. So, my early 20’s were the beginning to the end of having it my way.

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Song of Solomon 2:7
I adjure you, O daughters of Jerusalem,
by the gazelles or the does of the field,
that you not stir up or awaken love
until it pleases.

This verse helped me during my season of heartbreak. This verse means that as women, we need to not awaken love until it is our time. To not search for love, but to wait on God to show that to you at the right time. It means to simply fall in love with the Lord. It means to become so rooted in God that no random man will waste your time because he have to be chasing God as well. It means that during your single season, instead of crying about being single, prepare yourself and ask God what you need to work on inside of your heart.

I have been tested many times because God wanted to know where my heart truly layed. I’ve had men asking me to go out on “dates”, men who pretended to know God just so that they can get my attention (thank the Lord for discernment), men from my past that I loved, and even a man that caught my attention because he fitted everything I prayed for in a man. Those tests were real! Some of them felt like a joke as I laughed and easily turned them down. I promised I will never allow my flesh to lead me. I’ve cried so many times for the tests that really got to me. Each time I did, I went to my Father and sat at His feet. The times I felt lonely, He found me. Cradling me like a sobbing baby that just needed love.

I cannot be with just any man. I refuse to allow myself to get ahead of God. He has done too much for me! I have come too far and so deep into our relationship to allow the devil to win! I want His heart. No man will ever fill in any voids! So if it’s not my time, then I fully accept that, remain obedient, and I will wait! I will wait for that marriage that represents the love of God and who He is. I will wait on the man that I can respect and honor with all of my heart. The man that loves God more than he loves me. To wake up to his face and become so proud of him. The one who makes sacrifices. To cheer him on even when life gets tough. The man that I currently pray for as God prepares him for me as well. I wait on the head of my household that will also lead our children. The man that will challenge and point out my wrongs so that he helps me grow as well. I will wait on true love.

Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.
Psalm 27:14

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Completely blurry, but I still love it!

I will wait for the day when God tells me, “We’ll done.” I am confident and trust that He will release His promises for me. My single season is important! God needs me to be here so that He can take me to another season where I am fully equipped and ready!

I am content and enjoy my single season. I have never had so much fun in my life! My heart is just overflowed with His love. I go out on dates with God, I love serving and worshipping Him, my prayer life is on fire, I am passionate about my ministry, and I am blessed for the friendships I’ve developed. My brothers and sisters challenge me as well. We hold each other accountable and correct each other lovingly. We love each other the way Christ loves the church.

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This is my church. This is my home. I spend so much time here more than any place. This is the place I am planted in.

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Bae can't stay if bae don't pray! Praying is one of my gifts, and if a man doesn't pray then he will not be useful in our marriage. The enemy hates marriage, therefore we will constantly be under attack. I've learned how to pray for my marriage now. The closer we are to God, then the closer we will be. When two or three are gathered in His name, then He will be with us.

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Smile, there is hope. Don’t miss out on your season and look back regretting that you missed out on God and what He tries to prepare you for. How did I do it? There’s no secret formula or math equation. It took me years of praying to get to where I am today. It took full surrenderence, obedience, and stripping everything within me that needed to be killed. Everyone have their own pace. God allowed me to become so shattered that He can get my full attention.

When God showes me something about myself, I understand it is not only for my good but for the people I am around. It’s for the people I will come across.

It’s not only for my future husband, but for our future generations. This time last year was the end to having it my way. I gave it all up so that He can have it His way. My heart is no longer broken and it never will be again.

He wants your full attention and your heart. Surrender everything that you are holding on to and just give it to Him. You won’t regret it.

Our Father placed it on my heart to tell you this. He loves you even during this time when you feel as if you aren’t enough. In His eyes, you are enough! No one is perfect, but through Him… by His blood… He will cover us because we are His children. Don’t allow anyone to justify who you are. Understand that you can have the faith as small as a mustard seed and be able to conquer this moment as well as any challenge you face!

Believe this instead of posting it on your social media and saying it: Philipians 4:13 I can do all things through him who strengthens me.

A few things to remind you! Don’t forget to purchase your copy of “A Sense of Hope”! I explained my past relationships and encourage you during your single season. If you know anyone who needs this as well, it will make a perfect gift!

Also, I’ve updated the shop section on this website! You can now purchase a few items from the A Sense of Hope line! I’m so excited and I have prayed you’ll love them as well!

A Sense of Hope store.
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